Ben nas\u0131l \u0130stanbul\u2019a a\u015f\u0131k, ac\u0131s\u0131yla tatl\u0131s\u0131yla \u0130stanbul seven bir insansam annem de bir o kadar sevmez. Trafi\u011finden tutun kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131na kadar \u015fikayet eder. Gezmeyi sever tabi arada bir ama ona g\u00f6re birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn durulmal\u0131d\u0131r, bir hafta bile de\u011fil, sonra bu g\u00fczelim Bo\u011faz \u00f6ks\u00fcz yetim b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131p gidilmelidir.<\/p>\n
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Bende de ona kar\u015f\u0131 bir savunma duygusu olu\u015fmad\u0131 de\u011fil, o ne kadar yererse ben o kadar \u00f6verim \u0130stanbul\u2019u. Ne kadar g\u00fczel, ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck, ne kadar f\u0131rsat ve macera bar\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131r dururum. O da bana hep ayn\u0131 cevapla kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verir, \u0130stanbul\u2019da ya\u015fayan insan\u0131n kendi semtinden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bu g\u00fczelliklerin \u00e7o\u011funu b\u0131rak\u0131n gezmeyi i\u015f vesilesiyle dahi g\u00f6rmedi\u011fini, herkesin kendi u\u011fra\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7inde kurdu\u011fu d\u00fcnyaya \u0130stanbul\u2019un gizemlerini katmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yler.<\/p>\n
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Ben bilardo topu gibi \u015fehrin bir k\u00f6\u015fesinden \u00f6b\u00fcr k\u00f6\u015fesine savrulma merakl\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in bunu yad\u0131rgard\u0131m \u00f6nceleri. Ama \u0130stanbul\u2019daki hayat\u0131mda annemin kabullenmek istemedi\u011fim senaryosunu do\u011frulayan \u00e7ok \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Pendik\u2019te ya\u015fay\u0131p bir kere dahi \u0130stiklal\u2019e \u00e7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015f, Avrupa yakas\u0131ndan daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 kar\u015f\u0131ya ge\u00e7memi\u015f, Kad\u0131k\u00f6y-\u00dcsk\u00fcdar \u201cdershane hatt\u0131\u201d d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda toplu ta\u015f\u0131ma dahi kullanmam\u0131\u015f… Bir \u0130stanbullu olmayarak pek \u00e7oklar\u0131ndan daha \u00e7ok gezmi\u015f, daha \u00e7ok ke\u015ffetmi\u015f biriydim. Bu kalabal\u0131k ancak insan\u0131na k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015f \u015fehrin \u00e7ehresini g\u00fcld\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in ona sahip \u00e7\u0131kan biricik a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi hissetmi\u015ftim.
\nBu konuyu kaleme almak akl\u0131ma gelmemi\u015fti ama New York\u2019a geldi\u011fimde uzun y\u0131llard\u0131r burada ya\u015fayan amcamlar\u0131n, turistlerin milyon \u00a0miller \u00f6teden g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in geldi\u011fi Empire State\u2019e, \u00f6n\u00fcnde foto\u011fraf \u00e7ektirmek i\u00e7in s\u0131ra olunan Wall Street binalar\u0131na daha gitmediklerini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde bu durumun insan\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131 oldu\u011funu anlay\u0131p biraz daha \u00fczerinde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek istedim.
\n\u015eimdi diyeceksiniz ki herkes illa gidip g\u00f6rmek mi zorunda, zevk meselesi. Hakl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z amma ve lakin benim s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc etti\u011fim insanlar yine s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc etti\u011fim yerlerden bahsederken gidip g\u00f6rme hevesini, daha hi\u00e7 gitmemi\u015f olman\u0131n buruk pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fayarak anlat\u0131yorlard\u0131. \u00d6te yandan, bu kadar \u00e7ok insan\u0131n ayn\u0131 anda ger\u00e7ekten pop\u00fcler, g\u00fczel ve \u00f6nemli yerleri sevmeme olas\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fck say\u0131l\u0131r, \u00f6yle de\u011fil mi?
\nNeyse efendim, gezip g\u00f6rmeye harcad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fczel zaman dilimleri bana bir \u015fey \u00f6\u011fretti, turist gibi ya\u015fayacaks\u0131n. Bizde en b\u00fcy\u00fck eksik bu i\u015fte. Herkes kendine bir hayat gailesi yarat\u0131p Start ve Finish bayraklar\u0131n\u0131 diktikleri yerlerin aras\u0131nda var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle ko\u015fuyor, ne trib\u00fcnlere bakmak var ne etrafa ne \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fe ne b\u00f6ce\u011fe. Dibinde tarih \u00f6ncesinden beri insanlar\u0131n biricik incisi Bo\u011faz dururken oturup bir nefes alam\u0131yor, bir \u00e7ay i\u00e7emiyoruz. Hep yap\u0131lacak i\u015fler, hep kafa yoracak dertler var. Bir kenara b\u0131rakam\u0131yoruz.
\n\u015eimdi de diyeceksiniz ki hayat zor. Evet efendim, zor ama ya\u015fan\u0131lamayacak kadar da de\u011fil. Kendi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fcnyam\u0131z bize tan\u0131d\u0131k, bize s\u0131cak gelse de k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131ktan g\u00f6zlerimizi karart\u0131p etraftaki g\u00fczellikleri de g\u00f6rmemize engel oluyor bazen. Bir yere yeti\u015fememenin, taksitleri ka\u00e7\u0131rman\u0131n derdi y\u00fcre\u011fimize \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcverip bir saat\u00e7ik \u00e7imlere uzanma l\u00fcks\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc al\u0131yor elimizden. \u201cTurist gibi\u201d ya\u015fay\u0131p ya\u015flan\u0131nca ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m, a\u015fina oldu\u011fum sokaklarda m\u0131 can vereyim, nerede birikim nerede kariyer diyor da olabilirsiniz. Bu dertlerin, bu ama\u00e7lar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011fu bende de var. Ama inan\u0131n part time turistlik insan istedikten sonra her zaman oluyor. Kendi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fcnyamda arada mutlu oluyorum evet ama geni\u015fletmenin tad\u0131n\u0131 bir kez g\u00f6rd\u00fckten sonra bir daha asla vazge\u00e7mem san\u0131r\u0131m.
\nGezip g\u00f6rme odakl\u0131 olacakt\u0131 bu yaz\u0131, nerelere gitti. Ama do\u011fruya do\u011fru, her \u015fey i\u00e7in ge\u00e7erli bu. Yeniliklerden, kendine iyi davranmaktan, yeni bir \u015fey \u00f6\u011frenmek ve kendine l\u00fcks yapmaktan korkamamal\u0131 insan. Yaln\u0131zca endi\u015fe ederek ya\u015famamal\u0131. Geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7er\u00e7eveye koyacak foto\u011fraf\u0131 se\u00e7mekte zolanmal\u0131, arada bir bo\u015f saatinde bir sonraki i\u015fine erken ba\u015flay\u0131p g\u00fcn\u00fc erken bitiemeye de\u011fil yeni a\u00e7\u0131lan bir cafede buzlu aromal\u0131 kahve i\u00e7meye yollamal\u0131 kendini; yat\u0131r\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131zca gelece\u011fe de\u011fil bug\u00fcne de yapmal\u0131. Kenara koydu\u011fu paran\u0131n hepsini harcamak istemenin zorla\u015faca\u011f\u0131, \u00e7anta ta\u015f\u0131yan ellerin titreyece\u011fi zamanlara saklamamal\u0131. Kendi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fctmeli, kendi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fcnyas\u0131na yat\u0131r\u0131m yapmal\u0131. Zira 7 milyar ak\u0131ll\u0131 canavar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu gezegende sahip olunabilecek tek d\u00fcnyas\u0131 oras\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Ben nas\u0131l \u0130stanbul\u2019a a\u015f\u0131k, ac\u0131s\u0131yla tatl\u0131s\u0131yla \u0130stanbul seven bir insansam annem de bir o kadar sevmez. Trafi\u011finden tutun kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131na kadar \u015fikayet eder. Gezmeyi sever tabi arada bir ama ona g\u00f6re birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn durulmal\u0131d\u0131r, bir hafta bile de\u011fil, sonra bu g\u00fczelim Bo\u011faz \u00f6ks\u00fcz yetim b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131p gidilmelidir. Bende de ona kar\u015f\u0131 bir savunma duygusu olu\u015fmad\u0131 de\u011fil, o ne kadar yererse ben o kadar \u00f6verim \u0130stanbul\u2019u. Ne kadar g\u00fczel, ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck, ne kadar f\u0131rsat ve macera bar\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131r dururum. O da bana hep ayn\u0131 cevapla kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verir, \u0130stanbul\u2019da ya\u015fayan insan\u0131n kendi semtinden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bu g\u00fczelliklerin \u00e7o\u011funu b\u0131rak\u0131n gezmeyi i\u015f vesilesiyle dahi g\u00f6rmedi\u011fini, herkesin kendi u\u011fra\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7inde kurdu\u011fu d\u00fcnyaya \u0130stanbul\u2019un gizemlerini katmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yler. Ben bilardo topu gibi \u015fehrin bir k\u00f6\u015fesinden \u00f6b\u00fcr k\u00f6\u015fesine savrulma merakl\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in bunu yad\u0131rgard\u0131m \u00f6nceleri. Ama \u0130stanbul\u2019daki hayat\u0131mda annemin kabullenmek istemedi\u011fim senaryosunu do\u011frulayan \u00e7ok \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Pendik\u2019te ya\u015fay\u0131p bir kere dahi \u0130stiklal\u2019e \u00e7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015f, Avrupa yakas\u0131ndan daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 kar\u015f\u0131ya ge\u00e7memi\u015f, Kad\u0131k\u00f6y-\u00dcsk\u00fcdar \u201cdershane hatt\u0131\u201d d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda toplu ta\u015f\u0131ma dahi kullanmam\u0131\u015f… Bir \u0130stanbullu olmayarak pek \u00e7oklar\u0131ndan daha \u00e7ok gezmi\u015f, daha \u00e7ok ke\u015ffetmi\u015f biriydim. Bu kalabal\u0131k ancak insan\u0131na k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015f \u015fehrin \u00e7ehresini g\u00fcld\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in ona sahip \u00e7\u0131kan biricik a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi hissetmi\u015ftim. Bu konuyu kaleme almak akl\u0131ma gelmemi\u015fti ama New York\u2019a geldi\u011fimde uzun […]<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_stc_notifier_status":"sent","_stc_notifier_sent_time":"2023-05-09 00:46:00","_stc_notifier_request":false,"_stc_notifier_prevent":false,"_stc_subscriber_keywords":"","_stc_subscriber_search_areas":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-91","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random-stuff"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/91"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=91"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/91\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":92,"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/91\/revisions\/92"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=91"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=91"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bengusuozcan.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=91"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}